Dr.Mikes note:
This is a submission for the last year project . An essay project that is designed to stimulate your thinking about how you would live if you knew you only had a year left. If you would like to participate please email me at cbase@roadrunner.com
1/19/2012
Inner Light Studio Website:http://Innergardenoflightstudios.com
Name: Lee Ann Beaulieu
Health level: I feel that my health is excellent
Stage of Life: Working toward a full expression of Self
I wanted to participate in Dr. Mike’s blog about how I would spend my time if this were my last year of life because I admire and respect his full embrace of life. His clarity and energy are inspirational!
The focus of my input is not about where I would go or what amends I would want to make. All those types of thoughts and questions have been addressed and resolved at this midpoint of my life.
The important questions for me to continue to ask myself on my personal journey are:
Who am I as a Soul?
What is my mission/what have I come here to learn and experience?
How can I express the highest part of myself to serve, learn and grow?
Each of us has a unique life path to follow. I find it exciting to be the archeologist of my life to this point and to unearth the emotional patterns that make up who I am as a personality and how that has led to choices that I’ve made. What has been created and what has never been that could have. It’s so interesting to discover what lessons these patterns have brought to me and to have an opportunity to bring them forward for healing, if needed. Just when I think I have mastered or let go of an important issue, just one more thing pops up as a trigger to see if I am truly done with that. Every moment and interaction serves me and challenges me to use the difficulties that arise as a mirror for growth and healing on many levels.
At this point I am continually challenged to be clear and honest with what my intentions are each day and what I can yet accomplish. Am I a human Be-ing or a human Do-ing? Often, I get caught up in the rush of doing. There’s so much that would be wonderful to complete, another renovation on the house, a new garden, a trip to somewhere inspiring or another interesting concept to put forward in my work. Sometimes it is just staying in the balance of living an ordinary life with the daily tasks of cleaning the house, the yard, keeping up with the animals and my jobs. The days rush by and responsibilities can take up more than their share of time and weigh heavily on the heart and mind.
At these times, I try to remember what I learned from my Native American friends years ago when I would spend time on the reservation. We often call this “being present” but words lose their meaning when overused and become cliché. To live it takes practice and perhaps a bit of guidance. This is how it feels to me:
Be still.
Enjoy each ray of sunshine as it falls upon your face and skin.
Enjoy each drop of rain, even if the cold, fat drops drench you.
Notice each blade of grass in the field. Each one is different and has a purpose.
Appreciate each rock and observe all the colors, the shapes and their solid, dependable structure.
Feel the wisdom each tree has to offer. They have lived perhaps several hundred years. What have they been witness to?
‘Be’ the sparkling shimmer on the blue ocean waters, light and dancing.
Dive down into the depths of the sea and discover new worlds you could never dream of.
Beauty, magic and wisdom then appear in the simple and mundane moments.
Each being is, at it’s most basic, a pattern of energy. Each inanimate object is also a pattern of energy. All particles of energy emanate from the original Source. In the overwhelming awe of this how can we not pause to appreciate and feel grateful for all the magnificence that surrounds us? In fact, we are literally All Related.
There are many ways I live my life that stem from the teachings that have been shared with me. We are part of the web of life. Every part is sacred and humans are no more important than the animals, rocks, plants, etc. Mother Earth is our home and we must treat her with respect and care. In each moment there is a message and a deeper meaning, if we choose to listen.
When we live with clarity and deep intent our lives become enriched in ways that expand. It is important to take time to meditate, pray or start a practice that puts you in alignment with your higher self/God or whatever suits your religious affiliation. Usually, our life passions lead us to this place. For my mother it is a morning prayer of “let me be of service to someone today.”
It is important for us to understand that every thought, word and action has power in the now and will affect future generations. This is such a delicious thought! Instead of feeling overwhelmed by what outside forces appear to be doing in the world we can make a difference!
What is your purpose? What did you come here to learn and experience? Perhaps it’s traveling to the south of France, perhaps it’s sailing all the oceans, or visiting with loved ones to tell them you love them one more time. Perhaps you need to ask for forgiveness or give someone the gift of your forgiveness. Perhaps living deeply in each moment will stretch time so you can achieve your dreams and aspirations.
At the end of my life, I believe I will be thrilled to say that I discovered and took steps to live my life mission. I embraced it even through the fear. I took the gifts I was given and developed them into something to serve others. I took the Inner Journey.
Lee Ann Beaulieu
Inner Garden of Light Studios